Waiting!!!!

Life is such a mystery if you think it that way. I too think that I have faced a lot in life & still the sentence has not come to an end. I am tired. I really am. But this tiredness is not of some hard work or struggle in life, this tiredness is coz of the stability in my life that I am lacking. I want to stop for some time & let my thoughts wonder. I want to know who I am. I want to know what I am & many such simple yet complicated questions are there which needs to be answered.

Sometimes I feel even I am no less then that ugly creature who can go to any extent to mould things in his direction. I am like a wild beast that has no value for words like emotions, friendship & love. I am quite astonished at my own self & the expertise I have gained in playing with innocence, trust & purity. Still my heart doesn’t abandon the thoughts of getting that pure love one day. Heart! Ya you got it right, even I have it, though few people think it just a part of my body performing its functional task. But I know it beats. It still beats & is waiting for that gentle touch that can come close & say; relax honey, it’s me!

If you ask me, how do I expect life to give me all that now? Do I really deserve it? Well I know the answer is no, I don’t. But then did I deserve what still remains with me as a nightmare. What I am today is simply the reflection of what life has given me in the past. I know I am sour, but then if lemon is squeezed excessively then it is ought to give a bitter taste. I am no longer me. The sweetness in me has withered with time but I want to live my life again. I want to become sweet again. I want to love again. I want to trust someone again. I want to give myself away to someone, but this time it has to be for life. I am waiting for you.....